I am...

I am abnormal and cruel to the point
I wonder how people believe I'm a good person
I hear my mother's screams in my head
I see the pain in my father's eyes from past mistakes
I want my solitude
I am unforgivable with no remorse

I pretend to smile
I feel like I don't belong
I touch my tears
I worry if the nightmare will return
I cry and scream but make no sound
I am losing my sanity

I understand that nothing lasts forever
I say you should always fear yourself
I dream of that unforgettable night
I try to leave it behind
I hope one night it will end
I am the Sinner

Rowan

Ok this is a story from a dream I had...I honestly love it :)


http://www.wattpad.com/817901-thunder-rolls

Now I must work on a short story I have to do for one of my teachers. So far its called "Dead at Three" and so far I really like it.


Dead at Three

She was running. Running from her ruined past, her cursed future, running just to get away. She stumbled, tripping over her dress, the pain beating its way back into her mind. The pain was more than she could bear, as she laid her head between her hands, as her screams started. She couldn't breathe, she couldn't comprehend nor think. At that moment, pain reigned her body. The sickly emotion made its way down her neck to leave the poison of this torment to go through her veins...

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Medical Interventions of the Renaissance

1400-1700: The Renaissance

Period 1- Team 4

Introduction to the Renaissance Period

Back during the Renaissance period, many people did not have the opportunity to have the education to read and write. Science and medicine were one of the many topics that scholars and similar people alike studied. The printing press served as a new technology, as it was a source to spread information around Europe quicker than ever during that time to one’s use.

Medical Research

This was during a time period that the Church held more power than it actually does today. Many were convinced that illness was due to a supernatural power and that a cure could only be received by prayer. For example, Leonardo Da Vinci was one of the few who dissected human bodies. The Church was not satisfied if they were using "pure" or "clean" bodies so they had to use the corpses of "sinners" and criminals. Leonardo and others used this practice to help understand the human body more while also reading the books that were translated from Arabic texts. Other physicians learned from these dissections and as form of punishment, some were still alive at the beginning of the process.

Circulation: A Major Breakthrough

In the year of 1628, William Harvey made a discovery, which only started out as a theory. His theory was published, stating that the heart was used as a pump to allow blood to flow throughout the body. It helped Harvey as other physicians to realize that the body had different systems which allowed the body to function. This is the knowledge that we use today as well.

New Lands Bring New Medicines and New Diseases

Physicians and scientists started using foreign herbs to use as medication. The herbs were given to them by explorers such as Columbus, but unfortunately, the exchange also brought new diseases to Europe. The Bubonic plague killed about one third of the European population. Since their immune system was not use to this foreign disease, many died. They had no defense against the unknown pathogens. Just as the Inca’s and Aztecs died of smallpox since their immune system was not built up to protect their body from it. The Quina tree bark has a component called quinine that use and is still used to treat malaria.

Hospitals and Healthcare

Many civilians were not rich so they were not treated by trained physicians. Surgeons and physicians used burning the wound by a hot poker or metal to stop the bleeding which is also called cauterizing. In time, this process was hardly used as they became familiar with different ways to stop the patient from bleeding. The surgeons tools were basic which consisted of a saw, a drill, forceps and pliers that were used for removing the patient’s teeth. If a proper surgeon wasn’t available at the time, a barber was used for the procedure of pulling teeth.

(all my info came from http://resources.schoolscience.co.uk/abpi/history/index.html )

And the Curtain Falls....

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I believe what happened to Joe is a little harsh but it was his choice. No one forced him to pull the trigger but it also shows you part of his character. He can't face the facts of what he did was wrong and with the epiphany that not only do people make mistakes but he was wrong to think that it was only Steve's fault. Joe was a good character but in the end his death was justified but harsh. The way that I see it is that he went a little extreme with killing himself but people get desperate and they take the easy way out of this complicated thing called life.

Darkness Falls...

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Darkness Falls...

This picture relates to the darkness that they all feel because when its dark, you can't see anything.  Darkness consumes everything.  See in this picture how people are walking around? In the middle of the picture there is a group of people holding on to eachother.  That symbolizes that they intend on staying together just as Eliezer and his father intended.  

It's gloomy, depressing, and saddening.  It really does remind me of the Holocaust because there are groups of people surrounding a huge figure that if you assume is Hitler, actually makes sense.  The people are gathered, there's something standing alone in the distance and the people look afraind.  You can't see their faces but read their body language and their positions.  

Fire Played Its Own Role

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Symbolism of Fire

This person sees flames.  Swirling, causing destruction, when all he can do is watch.  He feels helpless.  Just as if Eliezer was watching or working in the crematorium himself, flames surround them all and strike fear into their hearts.  Witnessing the destruction that fire can bring, contradicting what they have been taught of what fire symbolizes.  In this situation the fire in the eye could symbolize the hatred towards Jews that the Nazi's feel or how the Jews hate the Nazi for what they've done.

Just as the woman on the train had her premonition of flames, this is probably what she imagined seeing.  Flames causing destruction and killing Jews.  She tried to warn them, but they all wanted her to keep quiet.  For one, they didn't want to believe her and two because they were trying to sleep and she kept having mini episodes. This picture reminds me of the hatred and rage Eliezer feels towards God and the Nazi's.

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Eliezer's Love and Devotion to His Father

This picture represents the bonding of a son and father.  The little boy holding onto his fathers' finger is related to how Eliezer is with his father.  He holds onto his father, supports him, and fends for him when he can.  He loves his father and refused to let himself die taking his father's point of view into consideration.  He didn't want to leave his father alone. 

Eliezer is bonded with his father.  The way he sees it is that he is the glue to keeping them both alive.  He does what he can to protect his father such as, when he went through the crowd of Jews and snuck his father from the left to the right side to where he won't be killed.  He wants to stay with his father which is understandable in the situation they are in.  I wouldn't want to be alone either.

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Inhumanization

The cruelty displayed by the Nazi's inhumanized the Jews who were the victims. The man screaming at the woman is an example of what the Nazi's did to the Jews.  Yelling, screaming, shooting, and torturing were frequently used among the Jews. 


They were cruel, put psychological stress and torture on them.  They made them all look the same, treated them with no respect, and killed them without hesitation.  Violence was part of their everyday life, and just like this picture, it is hard to get away from violence.  The woman is cringing away, expecting the worse, while the man gets into her personal space.

Eliezer's Disgust

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Eliezers's Disgust for God's Silence

This picture represents God's Silence throughout the Holocaust.  He was quiet and His people suffered.  Eliezer is convinced and disgusted that God has kept silent through their suffering.  He is confused, and constantly questions his beliefs.

Eliezer felt abandoned by his "God".  He felt as if he had just let them all suffer and gave up.  Eliezer was quietly filled with rage and the feeling of being alone.  No matter how much their people prayed, there was no instant salvation.  They were lost and confused.  Their "God" had left them is what they convinced themselves considering He was quiet through their screams.

Eliezer is Battling Himself

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Eliezer's Struggle

He has been struggling with himself.  He has started to lose his faith and now with the overwhelming situation he is afraid.  He doesn't know what to do.  Seeing as how the child was afraid to look and see the horror of what the child could've imagined.  He is clinging to the wall and using it as support.  

In my opinion, Eliezer feels abandoned by his God and he doesn't understand.  He starts feeling this hatred towards God, unknowingly grudging everybody and everything besides his father.  He is struggling within himself.  In the beggining, he was solid about his faith and beliefs as to now he has abandoned what he believed.  He struggles with what he wants to believe and what his lost mind is telling him.  I think he wants to believe in God but at the same time his mind is contradicting the thought bringing him to conclude that there is no God, and if there was, then God would have put a stop to their suffering.